Wishful Thinking

What a beautiful dream that last post was...I did end up working out one day last weekend, but I hadn't worked out again until today, and I definitely wasn't pleased with what the scale said on Monday.

My 5K training is going slow, to say the least. If I had worked out Sunday, Tuesday, and Thursday this week as I had planned, it might be going better. Unfortunately, sitting on the couch for 2 days catching up on the last season of Smash did not motivate me to do anything but eat and veg out. So now it's time for some serious rehab and catching up.

I weighed myself last night (I normally do it first thing in the morning) and was completely disgusted with myself for my behavior over the last week. I was up to 278, which, thankfully, is down to 273 this morning. I am still frustrated and motivated to see that number in the 250's by summer, so I came up with a new list of goals:

• I still want to be 225 by my birthday, November 24.
• That gives me just over 31 weeks to lose 53 pounds, instead of 44 (as of last night).
• That is almost 2 pounds per week.

• I am going back to Slim4Life in May. I will hopefully get to make an appointment for week after next to get started.

• I need to eat better. Period.

• I am going to train for my 5K 4 days a week, no matter what!
• Waiting 6 days in between trainings is not cutting it. I was so worn out today I could only do half of the workout for week 2; not good!

• I have a set of cropped pants and shorts I want to be able to wear by summertime hanging out in the open where I see them every day as motivation.

• I want to be out of the maternity clothes and sweats that I've been living in for the last year by June 21st. I am packing them all away on that day until my next pregnancy!

• I am going to get the boys outside every day for a walk, rain, snow, sleet, or shine, or, here in Missouri, 105 degrees with 98% humidity. The sunshine motivates me to be active, instead of sitting on the couch.

• On days that I'm not training, I would like to do one of our Zumba DVD's or pushups or something besides just walk. I want to make being active a lifestyle, not just something we do to meet a goal and then stop.

I think that's probably enough for now. I know it seems like a lot, but it's really just about doing stuff, instead of choosing to procrastinate. That's how I've gotten where I am now. "I can lose weight later." "I need to wait until..." No more excuses. I'm tired of always doing the same thing, and wishing that I were successful. It's time to really make a change.